Gramma, Sexy Super Heros, and Good Times …

On the afternoon of Sunday, September 11th, 2011 I got a phone call from my little sister telling me that Gramma had suffered another stroke immediate after her lunch at her nursing home.  By that Tuesday the doctors had told us it was time to gather the family and that Gramma would pass in the next 24-48 hrs.  We have all known for quite awhile that this time was going to come but in many ways we didn’t expect it.  I had just gone to Idaho at the end of August and Gramma had looked the best she had in the past couple of years.  It was great and we were all amazed at her progress.  Needless to say, I was taken a bit off guard when I got the call about her last stroke.

My Gramma made it through those first 24-48 hrs.  In fact, Gramma made it a week, once again proving what a strong and remarkable woman she was.  She finally passed away on the morning of Saturday, September 17th, 2011.  I spent that last night with her at her bedside.  While I believe Gramma left us days before, her body was still there.  I said everything I needed to say to her and have found some relief in her passing knowing that she will no longer have to suffer through the strokes she has battled with over the last 10+ years.   We had a small memorial service for her last Monday and she will be interred (buried) on my birthday next Saturday.

I left immediately after the memorial service last Monday and returned to Seattle and what has become known as “SlutCon” (thanks Lita!).   This past week was spent at a gorgeous Italian Villa style house on Lake Washington.  Gisele, Lita Lenee, Camerella, Eve, Femme Eden, Ari Dee, and Sabrina were all in attendance for a full week of shooting content.  We even had Brooke OHC along to do some of the photography (she’s AWESOME!!).  It was fun times.  We had crazy moments and good talks.  I think it was really great for all involved and not only produced some kick ass content, but also allowed us all some time to talk about direction and ideas for their solo sites.  I always enjoy these gatherings with the girls and we had a REALLY great group.  The chemistry was amazing and it made it easy to be both productive and fun.

The ladies shot some fun behind-the-scenes stuff and candid goodies in addition to our photographers, so I’m sure you will all be seeing some “interesting” stuff soon coming from our girls, namely those with solo sites that are up (or have them coming!!).  One of the best moments was a very impromptu Slutty Super Heros shoot we did.  It was hilarious to watch:

At some point some evil neighbor skank decided she couldn’t handle the sexiness my girls were oozing as they shot nude / topless outside in the back yard area and on the doc.  She even went as far as to call the Sheriff on us.  Needless to say, he left us with a smile on his face and the ladies went back to their nakedness outside.  Hot Chicks 1   Neighbor Skank 0.

Our Live Chat Event with FreeOnes got sidelined by fuckin’ Comcast and the internet going out.  The girls got all dressed and ready to tease and the internet literally died the moment they were getting ready to log into the chatroom.  They took a couple of pics and we are sending a small video clip to the FreeOnes Crew from the girls.

It was a wonderful and much-needed week for me personally.  Even though it was a “work” shoot, it didn’t feel that way at all.  It was drama-free, fun, and at times … completely crazy.  I’ll let the ladies tell you all about visiting the gay bar in Seattle, the other neighbor with the masectomy scars who interrupted a shoot, and the evil things they did to some of our photographers (sorry, Steffon!).

Keep your eyes peeled for some really gorgeous content from all of the ladies and for some new solo sites as well!

The Waiting Game

I’m still here in Idaho with Gramma. She’s a tough one. Yesterday my son arrived. He held her hand and was telling Gramma he loved her. Gramma opened her eyes, gripped his hand back, and brought his hand to her mouth and gave him a kiss. We all broke down when she did this. It was as if she was waiting for him. After that, she closed her eyes and we believe she let go. She has since been completely unresponsive.

Overnight her lungs have filled and her hands and mouth have become blue. The “death rattle” has set in, and yet she keeps leaving us all amazed by still being with us. I believe she left us yesterday though. Now her body just waits to follow. It seems like such a slow process, almost cruel, but we know she is in no pain.

I’m feeling much better about things now. I said my goodbyes and seeing what she did with my son let me know that she knows we are all with her. Now we are all hoping she can now just pass quickly and peacefully. Even the staff is amazed at her strength. But that’s my Gramma. She’s going to do things on her terms. And you all wondered where I got my feisty sidevfrom.

The Moment Has Come

It’s never easy to accept the death of a loved one, even when it’s inevitable. Sitting here now, really unsure of what to hope for. Things with Gramma took a sudden turn for the worst. The doctors have told us that it’s now time to bring the family together and be with Gramma as she transitions into whatever place it is your spirit goes to. The selfish part of me wants her to wake up. The other part wants her suffering to finally end so she can have peace.

I feel almost guilty that I am sitting here, waiting for her to take her last breath. I cannot explain why, but I do. Now I have those “if only” moments crossing my mind. But Gramma would scorn me for them so I try to stop myself.

This is difficult. It hurts. But at the same time I need her to finally have peace. I love you, Gramma.

Super Hero Undies and Hot Chicks!

I can’t believe I only have a week until the models are descending upon me here in Seattle.  In case you are clueless as to what I am talking about, you can READ THIS POST for some more details.  The girls have come up with some pretty amazing ideas for their shoots.  We will primarily be focused on solo shoots for each model’s website, but we have some pretty wicked girl / girl and group shoots planned as well.  From what I understand we have some water fights, school girl / teacher, Angry Birds cupcake wars, baby oil wrestling, Comic Book heros (sexy version) and other fun stuff is planned.  We’ll be offering a couple live free chat evens via FreeOnes and of course, at OnHerCam as well. 

It’s been fun shopping for all these props.  I get some weird looks.  And then people say things like “Ohhhh, your little boy will love these Superman undies!” … if they only knew! This shoot will set the pace for future shoots we do.  It’s going to be quite the learning experience I think.  But it’s also a welcomed distraction for me right now.

In the midst of all of this, I am working towards starting up yet another company.  I can’t give any details as of yet, but I promise I will soon.  I am excited by it.  I love new ventures.  I have a hunch this one will be very successful as it’s something in the industry that no one has touched on yet, but a rather obvious need.   I’m rather eager to get moving on it, but at the same time, I need to get through this shoot as well as clear up the health matters too.  I don’t want to be stupid and sloppy with things.

I am also eagerly awaiting the iPhone 5 to come out.  I had an iPhone from the first day they came out a few years ago up until this past March, when I changed over to the Droid 2.  I’m not feeling it much and since purchasing my iPad, I really really want to return to the iPhone again.  I am not a phone person in general. I hate talking on the phone.  I am more of a text or email person by far.  I glare at my phone when it rings and I rarely answer it, even if I am available.  I suck like that.  But I really do want to convert myself to all Apple goodness.  I’m even trying to use my Mac more often.  It’s still weird getting to used to it after being a lifetime PC user.

Wish Me Luck!

As The Abbie World Turns …

Yeah, I’ve been a bit absent recently.  But it’s been quite hectic around here for me.  I went to Idaho to see the family.  It was a great visit and my awesome Gramma looked better than she has in the last two years.  I cannot tell you how happy this made me.  She was actually able to hold small conversations.  She was smiling a great deal.  And she even gave us a peace sign at one point.  It was also my niece’s birthday while I was there.  They grow so fast!  But she’s definitely got the terrible 2’s down already.  She’s so cute she can get out of any trouble she finds herself in.

My own spawn turned 14 yrs old today.  I have mixed feelings about it.  Not really sure why.  He’s the spawn I worry about most.  He’s got some ‘special’ challenges, but you really wouldn’t know it unless you actually spent time with him.  He’s brilliant.  Sometimes a little too smart for his own good.  I know he’s going to be okay in life, but unlike my other son, I know that he will forever have challenges facing him that most “normal” people won’t.  So while I know it’s time for him to start learning the life skills he will need, I am also worried about what adulthood holds for him.  I’m probably too over protective I guess.

Both spawn also returned to school AND I’ve been super busy planning the solo model shoot that starts in less than two weeks!!!  So I’ve had many details to wrap up for that, shopping for props, and more. 

I also have something pretty big on my plate right now that has had me distracted and not really wanting to write much lately.  I’ve been submerging myself into work lately to try not to think about things.  I was hoping to have more answers by now, but insurance company bullshit and red tape along with some fevers have caused things to move slower than I wanted.  But for now, I’m trying to stay positive and focused.  I think this solo model trip will be a nice dose of “girl time” that I need to escape the real world for a week.  But once I have answers and information, I will be less vague and let everyone know what’s going on.  All is good though.